Whatever it is that they put in the cigarette, and how much damage can someone get from consuming it, it doesnt mean much to me now. Just to see the way he sucks in the smoke into his mouth, and the way he plays around with the smoke, is enough to make me mesmerized and stop worrying about the aftermath from inhaling this slow poison.

I've never seen anyone who smokes like him. I've seen people smoking like they cant get enough of it, like a baby sucking on an ice cream, and I've seen people smoking like they dont enjoy doing it at all. I've seen people who smokes like a drug addict smoking heroine, but him, he is just like playing around with the smoke, like smoking will not cause anything bad to him.

Sometimes he form 'O' from the smokes, sometimes he will pretend to act cool while he's smoking, and what makes him differ the most from others is the way he puff in the smoke, like he sucks in a little bit, then let the smoke lingers around his lip for a little while, then he sucks in again all of it, and I realize I have always watched his every move everytime he is doing all that. He looks very casual, very relaxed, very cool and very sexy too at the same time. Maybe he is trying to get my attention on him, or maybe he just loved the attention from everybody around him, who knows?

Or is it because I am crazy?
Crazy for who?
Him?

That does not matter now. What matters most is how am I going to make him stop if I myself like watching him doing that?

Cerita Karut Bulan Ini

Hehehe.. Lamanya tak update blog ini. Terasa seperti nak meng'down'kan saja blog ni... sebab it doesnt serve its purpose anymore. Sepatutnya this blog will be the place where I can open up, tapi terasa cam the opposite plak. Afraid of uninvited eyes, and afraid that there will be people yang set away with broken heart after reading my writing. So camner aa?

One of the reasons I dont write that much nowadays is because I feel like I dont have the right to be happy. And also because I dont have the time to spend on sitting down and pouring my heart out; banyak sangat commitment la skang ni. Ahahaha.. terasa diri sendiri seperti sangat bz.. Memang busy pun.. skang ni every week ada meeting, and most of the times I feel like all those meetings are redundant, sebab bincang punya bincang dlm meeting tu, last2 diorang ni (stpd management) decided to do other things besides apa yang dah agree dlm meeting tu. So yang ko ajak aku meeting every week tu buat apa?? Tak ke kebodohan dan kebuangan masa namanya tu...

Sekarang ni shift time pun dah berubah.. 8.30 to 8.30 plak. Better la kut drpd dulu. Bole balik awal skit. Yey! Sama jer sebenarnya, tapi psycho kan otak sendiri utk convincekan diri sendiri yang this arrangement is better than the last one. Kita kan kena bergerak ke arah yang lebih baik, so kena psycho pun psycho la, janji hidup happy. Terasa ada aura kebengongan ke? Apa taknya, tengokla jam kul bape? 5.59 am beb! Manusia apa yang tak tido lagi time2 camni? Manusia bengong cam wa ni je kut! Hehehe.. Apala nak jadi ngan pompuan zaman skrang.. Keje shift pun sanggup. Zaman mak2 kita dulu diorang sanggup ka keje camni?

Tak abis2 bengong... Sebab penyap05 tuh aa.. Kalau tak takde wa bengong camni..

Ada sorang mamat cute masuk dlm team wa.. Actually my team is expanding skrang ni, because we are getting a lot of new projects. Adala lebih kurang 30 orang muka2 baru masuk. Dia ni cute ala2 category _______ (to be filled in later, pasai tak leh nak recall mana2 muka artis macam dia, hehe). Tapi yang pastinya if you walk beside him, maybe ada terasa kebanggaan dlm diri sendirila, most probably other girls will look twice at him, walaupun sebenarnya guys tengok diri kita sendiri mungkin dlm 5 hingga ke 10 kali pandang.

Ada citer menarik pasai mamat ni sebenarnya, tapi ni wa nak citer mende yang wa tak penah cakap ngan a living soul pun. Macam rahsia besar je kan, gaya macam scandal hebat jer.. Hahah...

Al-kisahnya, pada satu pagi yang berjerebu, di tengah2 kafe yang konon open air tapi bila keluar je from situ habis satu badan bau makanan, tengah I sibuk2 nak balik lepas abis makan2 ngan partner in crime, I terpandang satu muka yang sangat cute tengah duduk makan ngan kawan dia. I was thinking to myself, budak ni budak baru team aku ke? tapi tak penah kelihatan muka dia before this, maklumla 30 orang takkan nak ingat satu2 kut. I was secretly hoping that he is in my team, at least adala sorang kan yang muka cute yang I takkan jemu kalau nak pandang pun, yer aa b4 this mana ada budak cute in my team. Entah camne ntah later that day ternampak dia dlm fish tank ni. So sahla he is in my team. Esoknya, meeting. Rupa2nya meeting tu pasai nak pilih sapa yang patut masuk dlm shift masing2. Pilih punya pilih, tinggal la lagi 2 orang budak laki yang blom dipilih. Budak itoos dan kawan dia la.. I wanted him to be in my shift namun masalahnya ialah I do not know his name. Terasa kekesalan dalam hati sebab tak pegi introduce diri sendiri the day b4 that. So main bantaila pilih, hope2 dapatla dia. Next weeknya datang keje, tengok2 bukan dia yang aku pilih. Ahahah.. Itula!! Galok sangat!! Tengok kan dah tak dapat. Tapi takpela, minggu itoos I spend one whole week men'train' dia buat Ericsson account. Takdak gangguan lak tu, train dia sorang jer.. Hehehe...

Tapi sebenarnya bagus jugak he's not in my team, pasai dia tu ada hubungan dengan orang yang tidak sepatutnya. Sangat menakutkanla jika dia realize perhubungannya itu bole membawa masalah yang tidak sepatutnya.

Itu jer la citer2 kita utk bulan ini.. Ahahaha... entry sekali sebulan kan.. nak buat camner.. ada masa I'll try to update as much as possible keh...

P/S: Mamat tu takdela cute maner.. Sajer jer exaggerate sana sini utk menambah perisa supaya the story became more delicious utk di makan. Tapi cute la jugak. Scale 1-10 dia dpt 6 dr segi muka la, body maybe 4 je kut. Ketinggian adalah mencukupi tapi penyap05 bole 10/10 (full mark) in every aspect la.. heh..